Hi folks.
Im in the hospital, but in good spirits.  Unfortunately the voices turned really mad & angry in my brain the night after our nice family day at the park.  I woke up to more mean voices in the morning commanding me to commit suicide or someone would kill me.  When the voices are that extreme, I need help to stabilize them.  Reaching out for help at the hospital isnt easy, but its the right thing to do to keep everyone safe.
I love my nieces & nephew so much.  They seem to really love & enjoy spending time with me.  Im determined to do everything possible to work through my problems.  Im committed to sobriety & recovery so i can be there for family for a long time to come.
Going to the hospital for help can be really difficult, but its worth the effort to be there for family.  I never give up or quit in life.  I offered to do anything, anytime, anywhere for my family.  Right now i plan on doing my best to work through this all so i can live a nice long happy healthy positive life with my family.  I love & enjoy being an uncle so much.  My nieces & nephew deserve a cool uncle to enjoy life with while they grow up.  Its up to me to get some help to stabilize the voices in my mind so i can recover & live a nice long family life.
Please know even tho this is a difficult time, im viewing it as a challenge.  Its rewarding to spend time with family after i achieve stability in the hospital.  After a week or two i should be stable & free again.  Once free & stable we will all be able to spend time together & make more happy memories.
Ask everyone to believe in recovery & freedom for me.  I promise to do my best to get some help.  Please believe in recovery for me thats why hospitals exsist.  All i would like is to live a happy healthy positive family life.  Im willing to put forth all the effort to improve & help stabilize the voices.
I promise to make the most of whats out of my control today.  My goal is to focus on what i can change & improve to make a better tomorrow.
Anyways, everyone take good care.
Remember to love your family & let them know you love them.
Please wish me well in recovery while im in treatment.  Promise to do my best for everyone to embrace positive change & improve myself for a happier healthier life.
Love you all
Wishing eveyone here happiness & good health in life.
Take Good Care
Ashton