got home and they managed to get me to the restaurant and i am regretting it
it's a whole different story to digest my typical vegan items and what i ate at the restaurant: 3 slices of pizza and some risotto alla marinara (seafood with rice).
I hope I'm done with this restaurant crap
Damn
the trading went great
great leap upward by NG: awesome recovery
ZN is not as low as its lowest since I went short on it, but I am still making money on it.
overall i am very satisfied
...
although... not completely
these two guys are kind of stupid, that's pretty much the problem
they're tidy but stupid, whereas my previous guests were smart but messy
I want to end this business of going to the restaurant together - if I can achieve this, and spend less time with them, the balance will be acceptable
my ideal thing with these guests would be to spend 2 hours per day with them, but... that's impossible and it is what sucks with being on vacation with other people
The good thing is that they're living upstairs, so I am still having some privacy and freedom - less contact
now i have a stomachache and i can't forgive them for pressuring me into going to the restaurant with them
these people are so stupid, especially the woman
they're more standable than the others - but they're still stupid
i can't spend too much time with them or they'll ruin my vacation
i need to make one step further and find someone i can get along with just a tiny bit better: certainly i won't go on vacation with the previous guys again
maybe i simply shouldn't have invited the lady, but the thing is that this guy is probably gay, so what the ****, i felt uncomfortable alone with him, because who knows, maybe he likes me - it would not be the first time that I make friends with guys who are gays and think I am gay, too. damn
and yet who bothers me the most is the retarded lady friend i invited
she laughs too often
****
well, gay people are more sensitive, so they are tidy, so i tend to prefer a gay person for this reason - because they're tidy
the women are also tidy - but they're more stupid in general
plus many of them, and even myself, feel that men should pay for them, so this causes problems, because i have to save
this one is both stupid and expects you to pay, so it couldn't be worse
besides she invited herself to this vacation, and i said yes, merely for this suspicion of this friend being gay and liking me
big mistake
damn
also the other 3 foreign students friends i met in highschool - they're like this: one is probably gay and he's the one i get along with the best
the other two aren't gays, and they're very messy and drink beer all the time, so they're a bad influence on me
my ideal friend for vacation would have to be:
intelligent
tidy
loner - so i don't need to spend too many hours with him
basically that profile fits most of my cousins and they live in nearby houses here at the beach
so basically i should not have invited anyone, as i used to do
who says i should invite friends
maybe it was about the trip to this place - i did not want to be alone on the trip
or maybe it's about... work, the office
maybe i felt bad about saying i'd go on vacation by myself
that could be a reason, too - subconscious one (not anymore)
for these tiny motives, i have lost all freedom
there's one more reason: i once was on vacation alone, swam a long time, and almost drowned, because that's what i do when i am alone: i swim all the time to the point of risking drowning
so i am now prolonging my life but making it worse with the friends i choose
an extra quality for a friend on vacation is being a swimmer
absolutely
that spanish friend of mine, from highschool, he's a swimmer, too, but the thing is: i can't invite him alone, because the other two messy guys who also went to highschool with us, would get offended
in some ways i might be afraid of being on vacation with myself
yeah
like everyone else, i might be afraid to be alone
at the same time, i haven't found a person or people who satisfy me
...
right now i am spending time in the middle of the night, still digesting the seafood and rice
and maybe tomorrow i'll sleep until noon
so i'll solve my problem of wanting to avoid these two guys and being unable to
he's a crazy driver - too fast
they want to take trips around here and i don't want to go
they want to go to the restaurant and i don't want to go
he's paying for her - she sucks for accepting
i didn't make her pay for the apartment because she was "poor" and now she's using her money to pay at the restaurant - or even worse saves it because she has him pay
disgusting behaviour
today they told me, she told me in particular: "it makes sense to go to the restaurant because shopping for food is more expensive"
this is ridiculous and she knows in particular, but she says it because of course it's cheaper since she's usually having other people pay for her dinner
what... why am i surrounded by people i don't like?
or: why don't i like people who surround me?
or: why do people i dislike surround me?
or: why do i dislike people?
**** these guys
i spend two days in peace with them, putting up with them, and them putting up with me - let's stop spending time together
**** being the host
I am sick of them already
and think about this: they're living in a different apartment
imagine if they lived in my house or in my room... how much worse it would be
hellish vacation