Back at the office. Today I'm going short on GBL at 144.80: too bad it reached exactly that price and I really don't think I got my trade, because the chance is about 1 in 100 that it was me there, I don't know how many others entered their order there before me and how many contracts got traded at 144.80. At any rate, if it doesn't get back up there, too bad and I'll have missed my discretionary trade for the day.
There's going to be automated trades anyway.
My roommate is still not here, as usual.
Which is always an excellent thing. As they say, "no news, good news", and I say "no company, good company". I get along very well when there's no people around. That's why I like the internet so much, because it gives you the "ignore" and "block" features and many other filters for unpleasant people. I just wish every office and even hospitals could be done online, but it's not the case yet. So we cannot optimize our life as far as that.
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Unbelievable. I think the gods of the markets are reading my journal. After writing what I wrote, the market went back up just enough to execute my trade:
From now on, I know how to get my wishes.
I know that if you look at the chart, the 144.81 dates 9.37, whereas my post dates 9.27, so it might look like I cheated, but don't forget that these quotes are delayed by about 15 minutes:
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Unbelievable. Now I am making 250 euros:
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Dude, better than my wildest dreams:
Making over 500 euros now. Now imagine if it hadn't gotten triggered by one tick. What a disappointment it would have been...
However, the gods of the markets are rewarding, I don't know why. Maybe it is all the abuse I've been taking in the weekend. I met an asshole on a forum, who wrote me I was an idiot. Then another public servant, on Friday. Here public servants are assholes. But they don't know that for every abuse I put up with, there's a reward from the markets. I am so glad to have figured this out. It's kind of delusional, but it makes me feel good.
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Ok, now profit is close 1500, if I combine the 1000 dollars from GBL with the 500 dollars from the ZN, which was open from last week.
This means that I am back at 15k, finally. Now this means a lot to me, because I haven't really achieved any success in life. Yes, my bigger achievement so far is that I have a part-time schedule and I can leave... at 14.30 starting next year, if there is no collapse sooner.
But being profitable would really mean a lot to me. Achieving something that so many around me have told me is impossible to achieve.
When would I be able to say that I am really successful and that I've achieved something? I'd say at about 40k, because I've reached 30k more than once before, and each time lost everything again.
So now I need to double the account one more time and then a little more. But already making 100% for three months in a row is not bad at all.
But what would be great is if I achieved this just with automated trading, because that's my thing. This discretionary trades thing is not my thing, and it can go terribly wrong sooner or later, because I am always at risk of compulsive gambling. Like a recovering alcoholic.
