http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angel_of_God
Ángele Dei,
qui custos es mei,
me, tibi commissum pietáte supérna,
hodie illúmina, custódi,
rege et gubérna.
Amen.
Ehm, I am atheist, but in times of despair such as these, praying is tempting. Just like doing drugs.
Or turning to nazism as a guiding light. Which, as I said, would put me to death, because of my hearing problems.
Although there might be exceptions for the leaders, so maybe I should still give it a try.
Or... speaking of nazism, I should maybe move to Israel, or apply, because I heard that hospitals there are very efficient. Becoming a jew or nazi would be the ideal choice for me, but anything is better than being an Italian living in Italy.
Tomorrow I have 2 more sessions of hyperbaric oxygen therapy and a disgusting shot of cortisone in my eardrum, which might deafen me completely and i am really wondering whether I should let them do it, considering today they asked me to go buy the medicine for them. They said they're experienced but they took an hour to find out if they had the medicine. I am really thinking of not going tomorrow. These mother ****ers are not worthy of being called doctors. Don't get sick in Italy.
But I'll say more: don't even come on vacation in this **** hole country. Go to Norway instead, or at the most go to South Tyrol, which is the only good part of Italy.
Tell you what: I am not going to get the shot tomorrow. Screw these mother ****ers. I don't trust them. I'll bring them their medicine for the next patient, but I won't let them inject me anything.
...
Or maybe I'll go. Depending on my mood tomorrow. And right now I am pissed off. It sucks to be forced to make this choice (getting my eardrum injected with cortisone by a nurse who asked to buy her the medicine) in a crappy hospital as this one, the biggest in Rome -- and my father was a powerful politician until recently -- not that he helped me much at all. But imagine what it's like for a regular citizen: at least as bad as my experience.
I don't know. I don't want to risk having my hyperbaric oxygen sessions interrupted because I have been uncooperative. At the same time, it might help. But it also might destroy my ear.
Especially if let's say, on top of not having the medicines, they don't have the right needle and instead of buying new needles, they use the wrong needle to save money.
Do I really want to be in the hands of these butchers...?
The alternative is to keep taking cortisone via pills, which according to them is not as effective, and, according to the previous asshole doctor, I've been scaling down on it.
But one thing is to trust an asshole doctor with pills, and another thing is to let them stick a needle in my eardrum.
I'll see how I wake up tomorrow. Depending on how it goes, they'll have to come and get me physically, because these two places are far apart, and I will leave the medicines for the nurse, but I am really unsure whether I'll go back to... get injected.
Also, if miraculously tomorrow morning I wake and have recovered even part of my hearing, then screw them all, including the hyperbaric oxygen therapy, which I'll continue doing, but I'll risk interrupting.
This is the problem with health here in Italy: you're their prisoner because, with all the lines, they're not obliged to grant you any rights. They can always say: hey, you're being rude to us and there's a long line, get back in line, wait 2 months, and bring us this long list of documents which we hadn't asked you, because we were nice.
Yeah, indeed, on the phone they asked me for some x-rays and another thing, but once I got there, the list was 3 times as long, and there was a nazi nurse who was thinking of requiring all those documents, but today luckily she wasn't there, so I got away with just what I had brought.
But, you see, at any time, they have the power and the habit of giving you a hard time. So you have to be kissing up all the time to these people, even though they're being paid by you through your taxes. And even those you're paying extra money on top of your taxes, you still have to kiss up to them, because we Italians are so used to this crap, that no one dares to stand up.
Then of course with such a crappy government and public services, no one feels like they have the duty to pay taxes if they can get away with it. In Italy the rule is that there are no rules, no social cohesion, no sense of a nation, no sense of duty, no sense of state. And that's why they elected a crook like Berlusconi. Because being a crook is not that uncommon here, and the voters can't even tell the difference between a crook and an honest person - because a lot of them do not know what honesty is.
