Mate, you have some serious issues.It's a true do or die situation now. Its not a game anymore. It's life itself. Let my 20's truly begin.
Just look at yourself in the mirror... and please realize that you're just gambling on credit. I sure hope you don't lose all very soon... but some day there will be a bigger drawdown than any you've had up until now.
Why don't you just try to get in a small trading firm and get some more experience. Just don't mention you're trading like this, because they will laugh in your face.
Or just bite the bullet and work your ass of for a year or two saving every penny so you start the right way.