The short story: grief stricken. Depressed. Invested into options trading and made a windfall, then, literally, lost it all, practically in one trade. I didn't know this at the time, but I got VERY lucky. Now I know. What did I do wrong? Practically everything. Huge position size. No risk management. Going in again out of agony and sadness, only to lose even more. I swear: I'm ready. I'll start with 1 lot. I opened a paper trading account. I need help and I've put myself out here for all to see, because I know there has to be someone here who understands me. I know I've done wrong and I want to change irrespective of how long it takes or how complex it is. I'm absolutely TERRIFIED. If you understand and are willing to coach me, please PM me. Thank you.