re: my journal 2 
Yes. I wish it were that easy and simple. The problem is that "profitable" only means "probably profitable". Even if I felt sure about them, there wouldn't be a certainty that they will be profitable in the future. I would definitely invest a whole 5000 dollars on them and never look back, but the problem is that it would not be enough to trade them. But I would never take out a loan of 50k and invest it on my systems, because if it doesn't work out, I'll be forever indebted to the bank. I wish I could go back in time, to when these systems made me 20k to 30k and each time I proceeded to blow the winnings via restaurants, or discretionary trading. Back then I was really reckless and didn't realize the value of money and time. Damn. This recklessness has gone on until this past summer. Each time I reached 20k, I started inviting people to the restaurant, but then the drawdown came and I was screwed, panicked, started increasing my discretionary trading to make up for losses which I didn't feel I could afford... and here I am, from 30k to 3k. |