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Old Jun 27, 2012, 9:03pm   #905
 
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Yamato started this thread Neighbour just slammed her door again. I felt the urge to get out in the hallway and shoot her with a machine gun. That'd be nice.

But I can't do it.

Next, I could feel in myself the urge to go and eat something. But that's not a healthy reaction. And it's what I've been doing for years: scratching, eating, gambling.

What I did this time, consciously, is releasing my tension via some push-ups. Magic words: push ups and sit ups. So wonderful, wonderful way to release tension. You have to do them immediately, before anything else takes over, before you take it out on yourself. Right after you feel the anger, and the urge to kill, you have to do exercise.
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Old Jun 27, 2012, 10:24pm   #906
 
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Yamato started this thread Another great episode of lew rockwell's show, with Judge Napolitano:
280. Tools of Tyranny

Alex Jones has great merits for protesting in the streets, something these guys don't do as well, but Alex should learn to listen from them. They let their guests talk. This show is better for understanding what's going in the US than Alex's show. And it might get more cultured fans to the cause.

In other ways Alex Jones, Jesse Ventura and other down to earth people are showing much more balls and say the whole thing how it is. So let's say this: if you want to hear quiet reasoning on the truth without ads, go with lew rockwell. If you want to hear loud truths shouted over and over again with a lot of ads, then go with alex jones. However, alex jones says a little more of the truth. Judge Napolitano and Lew Rockwell did not mention the biggest thing: 911 being an inside job. They'd never go out in the street shouting "911 was an inside job!" like Alex Jones does... they show less balls. Of course I am not blaming them for not risking their lives as much as alex jones is doing.

If Alex had no ads (they've been getting more frequent), didn't shout, and talked less and let their guest talk more, then he would be unbeatable. But he's not doing all of this, so I would say that Lew Rockwell's radio show is as good right now. In some ways better, and in some ways worse.

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I take it all back. Lew shows huge balls for what he says about the CIA here, at minute 20:
274. CIA Killers

So, all in all, we could argue that Lew has a better show than Alex.
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Old Jun 28, 2012, 5:55am   #907
 
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Yamato started this thread Wow, do I feel like killing today. At 6 am the little 3-year old idiot neighbor wakes me up by coughing repeatedly, which is his way of calling his mom. The mom doesn't come so he starts calling her "mamma... mamma... mamma...". Then I can't fall asleep for 45 minutes, and the neighbor from the other side leaves the house, slamming her door as usual. Of course I'd have loved to beat them to death. But I can't. So I tried some push ups, but I still couldn't go back to sleep.

No wonder when I have a tradable trading account, not only do I take my frustration out on the markets, but I also try twice as hard, too hard, to trade my way out of this situation: work, home, people bothering me at work, people bothering me at home. And I can't do anything about it, but trading. No wonder the worse it is, the more I try to trade to make money to escape this. It's a mental escape but also an actual effort to make money and escape physically from this. And in neither cases does it work. And the consequence is that I am both mad at these people and at myself, for being unable to solve this problem.

As long as I'll be frustrated by these people, I will not be a good trader because:

1) If I trade discretionary, I'll be too eager to make money... to make any money (impatience keeps you from being profitable)
2) If I trade automated, it would work, but I will be too impatient to trade automated and #1 will take over

The only solution would be if my parents just told me: "here, have some money and trade all you want, do all you want, and move to the island". But they're not gonna do that, they're never going to do that. They believe we're all entitled to a life of sacrifice and if you're not having a good time, for them that's the way it should be. Happiness is a sin for these sick catholics. You ought to suffer and if possible give your life for the world.

So what do I do? I don't know. I know what I should not do. I should not trade, for the reasons above. I should try to do exercise instead of engaging in compulsive behaviors. And, little by little, I should try to get closer to what I want. There's nothing drastic that will work, such as trading my way out of this. The odds would be against me. For now I'll keep piling up a lot of resentment against the world.

At this point I really hope for a world catastrophe, that will wipe out everyone. If they, these people bothering me are wiped out, then I'll be happy: I am hoping for something strong enough that will wipe them all out but that I'll be able to survive. Like a tsunami and I will be the only person who manages to not drown. Tsunami or earthquake or financial crisis or world dictatorship, war... anything that will wipe these two families out. And my bank, too. It has to be wiped out. Or at least all the colleagues on my floor. Some flu pandemic, too, would be good.
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Old Jun 28, 2012, 11:02am   #908
 
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Yamato started this thread The Federal Reserve Owns Your Life
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After only 20 years things went from bad to worse. During Franklin D. Roosevelt's presidency, in 1933, the US was unable to pay its debt. The county was bankrupt. The private banks that made up the Federal Reserve demanded their money and Roosevelt responded. He had to use the only thing left of any value to pay the banks and continue doing business with them -- the citizens of our country. Us!

Exactly how all this was orchestrated is too lengthy to be addressed here, but this much can be told. The original birth or naturalization record for every U.S. Citizen is on file in the official records in Washington, D.C. (you get to keep a copy!) and the property and assets of every living U.S. Citizen is pledged as collateral for the National Debt!
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Old Jun 28, 2012, 11:18am   #909
 
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Yamato started this thread Fascinating story of LBJ and his buddies:
Malcolm (Mac) Wallace : Biography

It begins with a nice clean curriculum:
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Malcolm (Mac) Wallace, the son of a farmer, was born in Mount Pleasant, Texas, in October, 1921. Four years later the family moved to Dallas.
In 1939 Wallace joined the U.S. Marines. After completing basic training Wallace was sent to Hawaii where he served on the aircraft carrier USS Lexington. The following year Wallace fell from a ladder and badly injured his back. On 25th September, 1940, he was medically discharged and he returned to Dallas.
In 1941 Wallace became a student at the University of Texas in Austin. He began to take an interest in politics and was elected president of the Student Union. In October, 1944, Homer P. Rainey, president of the University of Texas and an outspoken supporter of the American Socialist Party, was fired. Wallace led a protest march of 8,000 students but the campaign to have Rainey reinstated ended in failure. Wallace graduated in June, 1947. The following month he married Mary DuBose Barton, the daughter of a Methodist preacher...
Then he becomes a hit man for LBJ. One of his first victims is John Kinser:
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On 22nd October, 1951, Wallace murdered John Kinser. It is believed that Kinser had been killed to stop him talking about a scandal that involved Lyndon Johnson's sister, Josefa.
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The jury found Wallace guilty of" murder with malice afore-thought". Eleven of the jurors were for the death penalty. The twelfth argued for life imprisonment. Judge Charles O. Betts overruled the jury and announced a sentence of five years imprisonment. He suspended the sentence and Wallace was immediately freed.
Nice corrupt judge. This guy:
[Judge Charles O. Betts], Sequence: 1 | The Portal to Texas History
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And Wallace's biography ends like this:
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Wallace went to work for Harry Lewis and L & G Oil. In 1970 he returned to Dallas and began pressing Edward Clark for more money for his part in the assassination of John F. Kennedy. According to Barr McClellan it was then decided to kill Wallace. "He had to be eliminated. After driving to see his daughter in Troup, Texas, he went by L & G's offices in Longview, Texas. There his exhaust was rigged for part of it to flow into his car."On 7th January, 1971, Malcolm Wallace was killed while driving into Pittsburg, Texas. He appeared to have fallen asleep and after leaving the road crashed his car. Wallace died of massive head injuries.
As Michael Corleone said to Kay Adams:
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Michael: My father is no different than any powerful man, any man with power, like a president or senator.
Kay Adams: Do you know how naive you sound, Michael? Presidents and senators don't have men killed.
Michael: Oh. Who's being naive, Kay?
Many years after watching that movie, I finally understand what that line meant. I thought it meant that politicians send people to fight wars, but now I am thinking that it was hinting at JFK's assassination, which had happened 10 years earlier. At least in the US, being a politician is no different than being a mobster. Except the mobster is better, because he's putting his life on the line. The politician usually gets away with his crimes. Even worse: he's regarded as a hero and his crimes are ignored or unknown.

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(I wonder what they're telling her)

Wake up american sheeple. You have had a president that had his own sister killed:
LBJ Killed JFK... American History and Politics
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Fearing that his sister might pose a threat to his political career, LBJ had more work for Wallace. On December 25, 1961, LBJ's sister, Josefa Johnson, was found dead in bed at her Fredericksburg, Texas home at 3:15 am. The cause of death was stated to be a brain hemorrhage. Josefa Johnson had returned home at 11:45 pm from a Christmas party at Lyndon Johnson's ranch. There was no autopsy and no inquest; the death certificate was executed by a doctor who was not present to examine the deceased. Ms. Johnson was embalmed on Christmas Day and buried on December 26th...
Just like Michael and Fredo:

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Wallace first dated her and then killed her:
Josefa Johnson : Biography
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It was rumoured that Josefa Johnson had affairs with John Kinser and Mac Wallace.
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Josefa Johnson died of a cerebral hemorrhage on 25th December, 1961.Despite state law, no autopsy was conducted. Twenty-three years later the lawyer, Douglas Caddy, wrote to Stephen S. Trott at the U.S. Department of Justice. In the letter Caddy claimed that Billie Sol Estes, Lyndon B. Johnson, Mac Wallace and Cliff Carter had been involved in the murders of several people including Josefa Johnson and John Kinser.
Wake up, american sheeple. After all the crap that's been happening, throughout the history of your country, you're still clearly believing the lies the mainstream media is feeding you. How can you even watch tv at all? How can you even go to a baseball game and stand up for the national anthem? How can you even place an american flag at your house?

The best american president was an habitual adulterer and he was assassinated by the shadow government, when he stopped caring what they wanted and worked for the american people. The rest were, besides liars and adulterers, a bunch of mass murderers, drug-addicts, drug-dealers, pedophiles. America is a country were the criminals are more good-hearted than the ruling class.

Canada on the contrary is an honest country - it is odd how honest canada seems to be despite being so close to the US. There's a lot of space in canada, so I would simply advise all the honest and good-hearted americans to emigrate to canada.
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Old Jun 28, 2012, 3:17pm   #910
 
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Obviously this documentary is biased and against the truth, because they are ridiculing the truth and they're not showing most of the evidence available for every "conspiracy theory" (that's what they call it) they mention. However, it's interesting to hear what these ****ing idiots say to convince against the truth and to stay with the official lie.

Furthermore, they're ignoring 911. I guess they didn't dare deny the truth in this case.

The documentary would be complete if they ridiculed Columbus and the others for claiming that the earth is round.

This really tells me that they're that stupid or that they've been paid to say these things, to ridicule conspiracies, so that the really big lies are safe. I think it's the latter.
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Old Jun 28, 2012, 4:16pm   #912
 
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Yamato started this thread Watch Storyville - Inside Job online - on 1Channel | LetMeWatchThis

Great job by Charles Ferguson and Matt Damon. It won the Oscar:



Finally these hollywood idiots are rewarding someone who speaks the truth.

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Gee, the corrupt crooks appearing in Inside Job are so repulsive that I had to stop watching it half way.
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