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It seems that this dude is the connection of the devil with today's government, but I might be wrong:
Albert Pike
There's more than enough in the quote above for me to say that Albert Pike was an asshole and that all freemasons are assholes. But it would be superficial to say it without studying this subject further.

For now what seems to me is that freemasons control the world, or maybe the world is controlled by others who in turn control freemasonry. The so-called "conspiracy theorists", who are usually right, keep talking about the "Illuminati", also mentioned in the quote above.

Whether it's the freemasons causing the evil of the world or it is the illuminati causing the evil by controlling the freemasons and others, the freemasons seem to be assholes overall.

At this point the next question I am curious about is how powerful they are outside the US, because I was thinking that they're not that powerful in Italy, but then some people - I recently met a 33rd degree freemason - told me that Monti is a freemason. If this is true, and it seems so, then we're all ****ed.

The Da Monti Code - By James Walston | Foreign Policy
The crap that went on in the US for decades did not happen in Italy, certainly not on that scale. But if Monti and Draghi are part of the freemasons, although unconsciously, they might still implement that evil agenda.

Here's another article on this:
MARIO MONTI E LA MASSONERIA: UNA RELAZIONE PERICOLOSA PER L’ITALIA. « Il Corsivo Quotidiano
The thing that puzzles me here is that they equate "Bilderberg" and "Trilateral Commission" to freemasons and it is not the same thing at all. They're just as evil in their plans and even more guilty of inventing 911 and similar plots. But they don't worship the devil. They don't do all those bull**** ceremonies. They're evil but they're not a secret organization worshiping the devil.

List of conspiracy-thriller films and television series - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Proceeding in reverse chronological order, from newest to oldest, I have watched everything I could find all the way to the year 1998, and I am finishing Enemy of the State, which was a piece of ****.

Going all the way to 1995, I still have to watch:
Shadow Conspiracy
The Man Who Knew Too Little
Murder at 1600
Absolute Power
The Long Kiss Goodnight
Eraser
Extreme Measures
I am going to skip "Nixon", because he was an asshole anyway.
Nick of Time
Panther

I am making sure I don't read anything on these movies before I watch them. I also skip the opening titles, so I don't get influenced by director and actors.

Less than 2 hours to go, here at the office. I ate one tomato, and still have 3 to go. In fact, if you eat healthy, half of the temptation of eating sweets or snacks at the vending machine is gone. No scratching of nose or head, either. Obviously I couldn't do any push ups, but I tried something similar on my desk. Anyway, I only have another hour and 50 minutes to go, before going to the ATM to get some money.

Quoting from Youtube:
"Occult Forces" (1943) -- National Socialist Anti-Freemasonry Film : Free Download & Streaming : Internet Archive

Also info here:
OCCULT FORCES FILM - DIRECTOR SHOT DEAD - FREEMASONRY EXPOSED - 12160
And here, on the film director:
http://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jean_Mamy

Good one.

1968 Olympics Black Power salute - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Excellent material. Excellent documentary on an excellent subject.

Nice clip and good points:



More good clips on how the sheeple of america behaved just a few decades ago, before a few got up, risked their lives, to promote change. Things can improve. Or at least they did in the 1960s, when people weren't sleeping as much as they are today. Now imagine if the CIA-FBI hadn't shot down all the guys they shot down: JFK, Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, Robert Kennedy and dozens of others. But that's the US. Freedom of speech as long as you talk about sports. If you talk about politics, use that freedom at your own risk. Cleaver and Davis are two of the few who didn't get killed.





Angela Davis today, on Slavery and the Prison Industrial Complex, which must have something to do with the military-industrial complex, which is part of why the US government created 911:



Here's another related video from another hot lady:



Here's two more excellent videos (not with hot ladies) on the prison industrial complex:

Today no scratching nor overeating. Each time I felt like exceeding compulsively at something, I allowed myself to exercise (sit ups and push ups), which is really what my body wanted to do. You eat because you want to chew, meaning action. You scratch because you need exercise. You engage in compulsive gambling, because you're restless and want action - I hope this is true, too, even though I haven't tested exercise as a cure to compulsive gambling, given that my account is now below 2000 and I can't trade.

If you let your body exercise, then the urge and the compulsion goes away. I don't want to say I solved it yet, but most of the problem (compulsive gambling, scratching and eating) might have been that I was sitting still for too long: at work for six hours and then at home for the rest of the day. Ok to not go out, because I don't care to see rome and the rude romans, but this shouldn't prevent me from allowing my body to exercise at home. It's a simple need that I never realized I had: I never wanted to admit I am still an animal like other humans despite the fact that I use my brain.

It also sounds right, because everyone said to me "you need to exercise", but given that people are usually wrong, I thought that once again... they were the usual idiots saying stupid things. Instead this time they were right probably. The one important difference is I am doing exercise right at home, whereas they were suggesting things that are a huge waste of time, such as "jogging", "going to the gym", "swimming". There's no way that each time I feel the urge to engage in a compulsive behaviour, I get dressed, pack my things, take a trip to the gym and exercise. The whole thing would take me 3 hours and I'd waste the whole day at the wrong time, when i don't need exercise. I don't want to come home exhausted, waste money and hang out with idiots at the gym. I want to do just enough exercise to avoid: 1) overeating, 2) compulsive scratching of nose/scalp, 3) compulsive gambling.

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It's like a recipe. If you don't exercise, everything is going wrong, because you'll take out the need for action on the wrong fields. If you inject a little exercise, the recipe works. I also read that you need a little bit of laughter during the day, and a little bit of music. Sometimes the solution is in little details and you don't realize it. I thought I needed massive willpower, and I was wrong. What I needed is comparable to a door squeaking that needs a little wd-40. If you have no idea what the problem is coming from, you might want to replace the door, but then you do it, and it still squeaks. Maybe I just needed some wd-40 and instead I thought i needed to radically change myself. Or maybe the problem is bigger and this exercise solution is not going to last. Maybe there's other ingredients I am ignoring. But what is the first thing you notice about people in jail: they're all built up from weight-lifting and other exercise they do. Why? Because they need to move. And being an employee with 20 days of vacation per year is a little bit like being in jail. But I didn't realize it and I was looking for other causes. Of course now I am not saying I am any happier, but I might have found a way to satisfy that specific need for action, which was going in the wrong directions: eating, scratching, gambling, phone calls. Maybe there's also a need for company, but I think that part is satisfied by the people I already meet, without actually making an effort to go out and meet friends at the restaurant.

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That unanswered need for action went into my trading, it corrupted it, and it turned it from "desire to make money" to "desire to make money and desire for action". I felt an extra urge to trade, that wasn't coming from just the drive to make money. There was a compulsive manic drive that consisted of much more than that. It made me look forward to it, like an addiction does.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impulse_control_disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Behavioral_addiction
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pathological_gambling
I have marked in red the parts that apply to me. Maybe it was not a severe form of compulsive gambling, but the addiction was strong enough to keep me from being profitable, because I wasn't just trading to make money but also to find action, and therefore I was making those extra trades - it was not a problem of not knowing how to make money. It was a problem of wanting to trade at all costs.